How Long Until I’m Skinny

by Zach on September 12, 2013

How Long?

A few days ago some one asked me, “how long until I’m skinny?”  That question really hit home for me and it told me that it was time to open up to you and share a part of my journey that I have always stayed quiet about; something that I haven’t really shared with anyone until right now.

The fact of the matter is I mentally strive for fit over skinny, but even to this day I fight with the idea that I could be skinnier, yet my weight is ideal according to my doctor.  Now, I wouldn’t say that I am to the point where I had an eating disorder, but I am starting to see that others are feeling this! Studies are now finding that as many as 4 in 5 men have body issues (and around 3 in 4 women!).  Those numbers are alarmingly high, and it’s time to talk about it.

Too often we think about body image as a female problem.  The fact is lots of men are facing this and I want to stand up and say it’s okay, it’s normal, but let’s start fighting those negative thoughts!  (P.S. Women read on there’s some good info here either way!)  I’m here to tell you that I have felt fat, inferior and ugly even after hitting my goal weight.  Hitting that goal isn’t always the immediate makeover we hope for!

Ninety pounds ago, I though I would feel “thin” at 50 pounds gone.  When I lost 50 pounds I though the last 40 would help me feel thin.  Needless to say that wasn’t quite the case. I don’t have a six pack, I don’t have ripped muscles, but by most measures I am above average, yet the mirror seems to make me feel like I’m not fit.  I am working on myself everyday, and I have learned to take that voice and tell it shut up when it pops up, and you can too!

Sure we all want to be “skinny” but if that is where you place your focus, the road ahead may be long and treacherous! Being comfortable with yourself can take a long time if you are not currently comfortable, you can work on it!  Here are some of the things I have learned on my journey that I can share with you:

  • Loose skin and stretch marks are battle scars and reminders of the sweat and determination you have poured in to get to your current level of health!
  • Stop trying to get skinny and start trying to get healthy, you don’t need to look like a model to be healthy and beat chronic disease, and that’s what I’m doing.
  • Your weight, your fat, your lose skin, your stretch marks, any quality that you are self-conscious about does not define you or what I you have been able to achieve!

Now I know what you are thinking, “Zach, that’s great but it sounds like you are struggling after you got thin, I’ve still got some weight to lose!”   Would you be happy to know that you have an advantage that I didn’t?  Right now decide that you are going to focus on healthy over skinny and watch how much more enjoyable the journey can be.  Stop looking for the “dest-thin-ation” and think about how great it will feel to be active and health.

I know that I have some extra skin, but I don’t want that to define me.  I don’t want to run to a cheeseburger because I feel like I’m fat or that all the work I have done up to this point is a waste.  I know that I am being a little reparative here, but I think this is a message that needs to get out there!

Skinny is an ideal that you may never reach, fit is a journey you can work on your whole life and be pleased with progress!

My deepest desire is to reach at least one person who is struggling with the way they look and to let them know it’s okay and you’re not alone.  You need to stop focusing on that little bit of fat, that extra skin, or those stretch marks.  I won’t sit here and say you can’t get six pack abs – because you can – but please stop hating yourself and your body because you don’t have them.  If you choose to work towards muscle that’s okay, but don’t obsess to the point that you can never meet your own standards, it really hurts my heart to see people who can’t love themselves.

Let me close by saying this, we all face our own demons but I would rather have a little extra fat and have good health than a six pack with an obsession about how I look.  When you focus on how long until I’m skinny, you will never get there.  Focus on how long until I can run a mile, how long until I can lift a 30 pounds weight, how long until I know how to eat right – choose measurable goal that puts physical appearances out the window!

Please Like and Share this story so that we can get the word out there!  Let’s help people get comfortable in their own skin again!

You are perfect just the way you are,

Zach Spuckler


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Cayla Pearson September 12, 2013 at 8:09 am

wow… Thank you Zach! You brought tears to my eyes and are so inspirational! So many people can relate to this!i know I can! confession: my journey started with laxatives and obsession combined. Not a good combination at all! Fortunately I squashed that before it became a HUGE problem. I used to want “skinny” as well! It truly is a great feeling to finically be comfortable in your own skin and to be reaching those small fitness goals such as running my first 3 consecutive miles!! That was huge for me! Fit is Fabulous and after reading this I will def be looking at my “battle wounds” differently! Thank you for all you do! I’m so grateful to know you and to consider you my friend! I love you Zach Spuckler, and thank you for this! I will def be sharing!! ❤


Zach September 12, 2013 at 8:58 am

Thanks Cayla! I’m grateful to call you a friend too, I really appreciate the kind words!


Theodore September 12, 2013 at 12:12 pm

SO PROUD OF YOU! Thank you for being an inspiration (:


Nancy September 12, 2013 at 2:32 pm

Nice article, Zach. You are wise beyond your years. It is wonderful that you are sharing your story and your insights so that others may benefit. WTG!


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